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Wanda does the perp walk into Westview |
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| This is what I wear to work. This is a down cardigan. The mask and scarf change, the rest does not |
I have been writing this post for months, with this same title all along. Watching Wandavision, and it's twisty tale of 'who is the villain here?' and overwhelming grief shoved me into finishing it. Since then, it's taken me weeks of debate about posting it.
2020 stank for everyone. I don't think that's putting too fine a point on that issue. There are times when one part of the world is down, the other up, or when one group is visited by catastrophe and others rally to help them. This pandemic year, everyone has been struck, everyone has had something awful befall them, and collectively we as a species have watched each other burn and rejoiced. It is horrifying.
Yesterday the spouse and I starting planning the divorce. I'm going to need some time to work on that. I'm not planning on not writing, but I know I won't hit the once a week goal I've been aiming at.
This is a blog about sewing. This is not a post about sewing.
I am not sewing much besides more masks and pants because I eat my feelings and I need bigger pants.
Luckily, I can sew myself bigger pants.
I don't have a lot to say about the relationship for public consumption. 38 years is a very long time to be with one person and not stay together for the old part.
I don't know the way out of this situation except through. I am doing my best to keep my physical and mental head above water, but it's hard and I am so very sad. Something died and there was no funeral. Mourning is never easy no matter when or where you are and the harder you try to hurry it along, the worse it gets.
I am not Wanda Maximoff, but if I could have built myself a functioning fantasy world to salve my pain, I damn well would have. And apparently for many years, I fooled myself into thinking mine was real.
But it's like the title says. For someone, I am the villain.
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Adding this, for those without D+
https://youtu.be/mkOBDOAg_1c?t=567
Amanda sums it up nicely from this point in the video
